First off, I want to get this out of the way: this site is for me. There is no debate on this topic. I will be using this as an outlet. If you choose to comment and give some ideas on topics and questions I might pose, awesome. I will not take discussion over topics I should cover or anything of the sort. At the moment I have no interest in making this anymore than a soapbox for me.
My Big is a chicken shit. He had the idea for this site many years ago, but never got the ball rolling. The reason for this is most likely the fact that he had always feared that someone would find out about his hidden life, his lifestyle, or in layman's terms, Me.
I always capitalize Me. It's your issue, not Mine. I like Me.
Getting back to the point of this post, I am thinking of using this site predominantly as a blog for my Little personality. I also capitalize Little and Big when speaking about pieces of one's psyche. It's what I do. Take up the issue somewhere else. This is also not up for debate.
As I sit here, typing this out, I am looking at this gigantically massive Campfire marshmallow. This fucking thing is huge. It has to be at least four times the size of a normal marshmallow. No, really. It is that fucking big. It's dense, too. It's kind of like attempting to eat a jar of marshmallow paste, or whatever you call it.
Cheese-in-Crimean-Italy, I was way off topic on that one. I can do that, though. Who's going to stop me? I can just sit here, wasting time, talking shit and typing randomly.
Okay, here it goes. One might call me an age-player, and they wouldn't be entirely wrong. I, however, do not consider myself as such. I think that I have multiple inner personalities that all need time to exist. They all do exist, but what is more fitting is is that they all need time to live elsewhere than in my head. They need a little time in the sun, if you will.
I am Me, but they are not interchangeable.
The two main people in my head are my Big (the Usual Me), Ian (Main Little Me), a very grouchy adult male, who I only randomly hear about, and a more timid adult male. There is also another younger Little type who doesn't force himself out like the rest. He mainly just sits back and watches. I fear for the day that he decides wreak havoc.
My Big isn't important. He has a job, he works his ass off for his family and my Little. He is awesome. But, he isn't important here. Ian, as my main Little. He will be the biggest part of this site. His exploits and such will be the news and updates, here. He lives most of his life hiding behind my Big, using the Big as a front while at work, on the town, at home, etc. As soon as the stoopids are away, Ian is out without warning. To the dismay of the Big, he also tries to creep out at inopportune moments. It's really apparent when the Big is tired or not thinking about holding Ian back. Ian is also thought to be about two or three years of age. Talk about uncomfortable.
The very grouchy adult male is said to be similar to my Big, but is a lot more angry. I don't remember when he comes out, and I think that he might just be some kind of cushion for touchy issues that could adversely effect the Big or Littles. He isn't important for this site, but I thought it might give a little background.
The timid Big is similar to the grouch, except he seems to be timid and quiet. He also isn't important to this discussion.
As for the other younger personality, I don't know much about him. He is kind of like the mountain lion in the hills. You know he's there. You know he could come and maul the entire town. He hides in wait, yet he doesn't cross your mind until he eats your dog and shits on your lawn. Then and only then are you terrified. The unnamed personality is much like that. He could pop out like a Jack in the Box, or he could creep. Either way, it could be very detrimental. Only time will tell on this guy.
